Well, our show, “Vanya and Masha and Sonia and Spike”, is now over and I am slightly melancholic.  

I did lose it when I delivered the 5-page monologue for the last time at the matinee performance yesterday, Sunday, June 16th.  I heard applause as I continued my sobbing backstage.

I was showered with kudos in the lobby shortly after curtain call.  One woman told me that I made her cry.  Several of the theatre patrons just didn’t want to stop talking to me, blocking the flow of other well-wishers.  

After collecting all my personal things: lip moisture stick; a tube of toothpaste (I used it to freshen my breath prior to each scene entrance); a wide belt I used as “Doc”; homemade voodoo staff that “Cassandra” used; a small duffel bag containing my makeup kit, blue tooth iPhone earpiece and script; DVD copy of our show; a small impatiens planter and card from actress playing my sister “Sonia”, I helped with the striking of the set.  I was holding back the emotions as the the “house” that we became so familiar and comfortable with was taken down.  After seeing the house almost empty, I slowly walked down to the exit door, carrying my personal belongings along the way.  Saw my sister “Sonia” as she was coming in through the same exit door.  I said final goodbye to her as “Sonia”, never mind that I said her real name.

As I was entering my car, the sound/light techie told me, “Romeo, another feather in your cap”.  I was beaming when I thanked him.  Such an appropriate way to “end” my journey as “Vanya” in our show “Vanya and Sonia and Masha and Spike”.

I was in a daze when I drove home.

So, “quo vadis” now, Romeo? Only the shadow knows.